(The Unexpected) Expecting!

Hello Lovelies,

So you're probably know the basis of this post: I'm pregnant. Caleb and I are so thrilled to be welcoming a sweet babe into the world in August! This journey has been a roller coaster of emotions but we are finally at the part where everything is so exciting.

I started a blog in high school that I was required to do for my yearbook class, and I loved doing it! Four years have gone by and I still get to go back to the posts and reminince. Last year I started a fashion/lifestyle Instagram that I wanted to roll over into blogging but never actually got around to doing it. So, here I am taking the step into blogging about this journey, life in general, and whatever else suits my fancy!

A little background:

Caleb and I started "pre-dating" (we call it that because everyone hates on the term "talking" ha) in October of 2015. I remember the first night we hung out down to every detail and every conversation we had. We talked for hours on end without there every being an awkward moment. We never had to fish for something to talk about. It all seemed so natural and flowed so smoothly. more than talking, we laughed, way too much. It was great. That night we saw over 15 shooting stars (we stopped counting after 15), and if that wasn't a sign that we were meant to be together then I don't know what is ;)

Fast forward through months of hanging out and getting to know each other deeper, to January 8th, 2016. That's when we officially started dating. A year goes by and we find out we are expecting! I could go into deep detail about the entire year but I'll save you the time and me the energy. Just know, we instantly fell in love and knew we wanted to be together forever (sorry, that will be the only sappy sentence on this post. I promise!)

It was not a part of our plan to be starting a family exactly this way, but I can't say that I would change a thing. Caleb and I knew we wanted to get married before we graduated college. One night our college pastor at City Church gave a sermon on dating. He said something along the lines of marriage not being a destination point. Such as "well once we graduate we will get married" or "once I get my dream job I'll get married" or "once I have a certain amount of money I'll get married". This really spoke to us. Why would you put off marrying the person you're going to spend the rest of your life? My point being, with or without being pregnant, we knew we wanted to be together. Our current situation kind of just pushes the process along a little faster.

Okay so back to the roller coaster of emotions. When I first found out I was pregnant I immediately thought of all of the people I would disappoint. I thought about the people that would judge me. And I thought about how drastically my life would change. No where along the way did I think about abortion. I am genuinely shocked when people ask me "Are you keeping it?", I respond in my head with "um yes, as opposed to??." Children are the greatest blessing form God and a blessing I can not deny. Telling my parents was the hardest obstacle I faced. If you could picture the most amazing parents in the world who literally do anything for their children and are so awesome and so cool and so loving and so supportive and truly the greatest people you'll ever meet, thats my parents! These are the people you do not want to disappoint. It was extremely heartbreaking. My parents got married at 19 and had their first child at 20. Needless to say, they didn't want me to follow in their footsteps. I left a two page letter taped to their bathroom mirror for them to find on their own.  I didn't have the heart to tell them face-to-face and wanted to make sure I expressed my emotions to them clearly. I expected for there to be anger and disappointment from them at first. But, I got the complete opposite. They hugged me, told me how much they loved me and how proud of me they are, and said they supported me no matter what. HOW AMAZING ARE THESE PEOPLE!!

The rest of my family has also overwhelmed me with their unconditional love and support. Everyone is so excited for us and not a single person has been negative or hurtful in any way. I am so blessed with these people. Caleb's family responded the same way. After telling them about our situation I had lunch with his mom and sister the next day and Mrs. Williams shows up with a present for me. A present! I seriously could write an entire book on how amazing the positive reactions have been. Disclaimer: there were still a lot of tears, but that only lasted a few days.

God placed the desire to be a mother on my heart a long time ago and it has consumed me. I've always wanted to be married young and start a family right away. I came from a big family and want a big family. I love every aspect of it. So, the news of being pregnant brought me a lot of joy. After the guilt and shame left, I was left with uncontrollable joy. I am no where near perfect, and need every ounce of grace God has to offer. I can not wait to be a mother and to watch Caleb be a father. This is a very unexpected and extremely undeserved blessing, but a blessing nonetheless.

We haven'y figured out all of the details of exactly how the rest of our lives will go. But we know that God has a marvelous plan for us and aspire to look for His guidance throughout every season of our lives, especially this one.

As long as this post has been I could still write even more. Thank you to everyone who has congratulated and supported us! Your kind words mean more than you'll know. I am so eager to share this journey with everyone and hope you enjoy following along!


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